back in the saddle

i haven't update this blog in so long...partially, just not knowing what to write or not putting aside the time to write, but so many things have been happening that much of the time i just didn't even think about it...so, back in the saddle and writing again.
so much is going on and has been going on...the kids are learning to read and write, they still need a lot of work on it, but the are 5 years old i don't expect them to be proficient any time soon. we've had our difficulties at school learning to grip the pencil, needing extra help writing, being distracted/low attention span, being teased, etc... but they are really blooming and blossoming in to wonderful and unique little dudes...choosing to wear blue nail polish to school despite adversity, wanting to grow hair long or wear gnome or viking hats to school (i crocheted the gnome hat, but bought the viking hats, but have since found patterns to crochet viking hats with detachable beards, which we may have to do), discussing and discovering ideas such as belief systems, and using our third eye and diversity...connor and declyn both have fairy friends that most people can't see, so they tell people all they need to do is use their third eye...unfortunately, most people do not/will not get the concept, but i encourage them to continue with their quests. connor has been showing great interest in the god thor (he's a super hero and a god, so that is extra cool) and declyn is more interested in the green man and stories of avalon and fairies, so i figure that we'll get books on both...read up on norse mythology and on green men and celtic myths and fairie stories, let them choose their paths as we go, let them decide what is right for them, they may change here and there, i know i've had my own variances and adaptations on my path. i hear from both teachers about how well behaved the boys are and how sweet and affectionate they are and how rare it is that they have a child so affectionate and connor's teacher loves the "apple notes" that i send in, saying that they help perk him up and lift his spirits and that she loves reading them to him because they are so special and so heartfelt. declyn is a special child in many ways...he has had extremely vivid dreams and nightmares since infancy and often seems "out of his body" or "in his own little world", usually because he sort of is...he does what some people spend a lot of time trying to do, but comes naturally to our family...he goes into the astral realm and sees 2 worlds at once...but he needs to learn to control it some so we are learning meditation techniques and making astral protection amulets and a special dream pillow and dream catcher for him. i'm sure some people are going to think it's crazy, but if anyone knows what indigo children are, they'll know just how special these "children" are (many indigoes are not children anymore). well, i'll leave it at that for the moment...i may come back in a day or two wth my gnome and elf hat pictures. peace and love to you all!

house cleaning, ballet and a boy with fashion sense...

yup, that sort of sums up this week...i'm trying to get things clean around here (nothing new there) and declyn went to the eye doctor...his eyesight is making big improvements and he may be done with glasses within a couple of years. tuesday the kids had a day off (professional development day?)and we went to the mall and stopped into a kids clothes store where declyn fell in love with an argyle sweater vest and fedora and driver cap...yup...this boy has a sense of style. he also liked the "handsome shirts" (button up/oxford shirts) and some neckties and bowties. now if you ask him what he wants for christmas/yule it's "drums, that cool hat (fedora) and science stuff and tools"...gotta love it! this morning declyn was doing ballet while i was making breakfast and i told him he was doing lovely ballet and he said he'd love to take ballet class, but was afraid that boys can't do ballet, i re-assured him that they could and i posted on facebook about it and we have gotten quite a bit of support...really, not enough boys do ballet or are encouraged to follow such dreams. I'm hoping to find some local classes maybe he and his cousin, lolli could take classes together.

anyway...having twins one of the things i've really wanted to instill is a sense of individuality...i really don't like that so many people clump them in as if they were one child...they are so incredibly different...they may look (nearly)identical, but they have different personalities, different tastes in clothing, different interests. i have always been a bit unique and i really don't express myself through clothing and style the way i once did...when i had kids i got rid of some of my more radical clothes (a lot of my punk and/or goth stuff) and i regret that...i think i need to set an example for my kids by being myself and fully expressing who i am so that they can feel more free to express who they are...connor is a jeans and t-shirts, comfortable not too fancy shoes kind of kid...sure he likes a nice shirt or sweater for dressing up, but he'd rather wear a t-shirt most days, right now he really wants a skull sweatshirt that zips all the way up so that the hood is also a mask and he loves all things rock and roll and thinks steampunk styled stuff (esp. hot air balloons and airships)and guitars and all forms of rock and roll type things (skulls, music, instramants) are cool and loves to draw. Declyn is more interested in drums, science, steampunk (esp. anything to do with mad scientist, science and inventions) and "handsome" things (fedoras, driver caps, oxford shirts sweaters/sweater vests, vests, khakis, neckties, bowties or if he wears t-shirts or henleys preferably they have no pictures) and ballet. i do what i can to encourage all of their interests and to nurture their individuality. this morning, at the bus stop, declyn has built a "fortress" actually he and connor built it together(they work well together) by lining up and piling several larger rocks and some of the bigger kids purposely knock it down...partially because these kids are never monitored by parents and partially because they just don't get it...that rocks can be a fortress or that that can be something so important that declyn gets angry and yells and screams and turns red in the face over it...i told declyn we'll rebuild his fortress in a secret location over the weekend. Declyn doesn't get that other people have no imagination...connor gets this and since i had told him that people don't see fairies or dragons because they don't know how to look with their 3rd eye was trying to tell children and adults alike that they could see dragons if they looked with their 3rd eye and explained "but you have to be ready, really ready." when people looked at him strangely he walked off shaking his head and mumbling "oh...they aren't ready...no one is ready." very exasperated...connor gets that others don't know how to see things the way we often do and he'd like to help them, but he hasn't figured out that most people never will open themselves to the wonders that can be there if you just shift your perspective and open up to the possibilities of what lies beyond the veil of the mundane.

so another weekend is about to start...last week my neighbors kept us up/woke us up with their partying and i'm not looking forward to that, however i am looking into some possible changes that could at least get us away from this neighborhood...if not in a terribly improved situation at least to a better place for us. well, off to do more cleaning...have some floors to clean and pans to scrub, i promised the kids that they could help with the bathrooms...since that is "science expirament bathroom cleaning"..hehe. oh and happy Spirit Day....i hope others are wearing their purple and bringing awareness to the issue of bullying.